This Is How We Stay, Please Stay This Way

Monica/ January 7, 2017

I am restless and nomadic, fidgety and vagarious.  My sister is my float in this river that pushes me towards a bank or a wall.  I rest on her. Each year, we take a sister trip, like our Hanna Sister Spectacular Summer S-cape (to Cairo) and alliteration-free sojourns to Anchorage and Antwerp, all the way out to Valparaíso and Zierikzee.

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Fear Some

Monica/ November 30, 2016

Step by step, I followed the chubby two-year-old legs up the loft ladder. Her father belayed her climb clutching her firmly, as we tested how far she’d go, how high up fear waited for her. She’d spent the better part of an hour circling back to the foot of the ladder to plant her black sparkly shoes on its first

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Home Sweet & Sour Home

Monica/ September 28, 2016

I carry on several romances outside my marriage. One with cheese-fries, another with shoes, one more with houses I can’t afford. I idle often with these lovers. The most unrequited, however, is my emotional abandon to Nice, France. She is my preferred mistress, someone I cannot have a life with but allow to consume me. More reckless admirers have left

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Hold Back the River

Monica/ September 15, 2016

Few friends hold back the river with a leisurely dinner or coffee break. A buoyed pause midday, midweek, mid-month, just before or after blisters of anxiety and insecurity tremble to pop in lonely water. Somehow, we find ourselves downriver together. We get there separately, most often rafting down different rivers altogether, intersecting for a moment long enough to see clarity

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Hipster

Monica/ December 17, 2015

For far longer than good judgment allowed, I wanted to be a professional belly dancer.

Eva’s Apple

Monica/ November 9, 2015

My mother, Eva, is remarkably beautiful, but I am not. According to some people, that makes me a complete failure. I’m comforted by the fact that those people are idiots. They see nothing else of her, barring any possibility that I resemble her in some other way, perhaps even a better way. But my mother is much more than her

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